Alrighty!
After being side tracked a bit -- by men, of course -- I'm back on track to getting better. I want to define what that means to me.
First, I want to stop dating. I seem to have a serious problem with always needing or wanting a man around, so much so that I will spend time with a man I know I am not interested in, just to keep from being lonely. That's not right. And even if I meet someone great, I cannot date anyone right now. For real. No crushes even. I need to focus on myself. I bought myself a ring tonight. It symbolizes being committed to getting to know and love Becca.
Second, I want to get my finances in order. After being unemployed, and then under employed I dug myself quite a hole. I've been sued for foreclosure on my house. I'm currently working on short selling my house and this will help me in several ways. First I won't have a foreclosure on my credit report, second it will get me out of the house I bought and shared with my ex husband. I will get a fresh start in a new place, that will fit my current income and abilities (I'm just not able to or interested in caring for a house by myself). I'm paid weekly, and I'm slowly getting caught up on all my bills. Once I do that I can take steps to consolidate some of them, or rework lower monthly payments. I also need to STOP BUYING STUFF. I've become such a shopaholic, I disgust myself. Especially since this is exactly when I cannot afford to be so loose with my money.
Third, I want to start volunteering. I do like my job, but it is not something I'm passionate about. I believe being involved in something I'm passionate about will be an excellent way to get to know and love myself. There's a Methodist church in town I think I've mentioned before, that has so many great programs for the community, and I'd like to help out there. Starting slow, maybe once a week, and not over-committing myself so that I get burned out and quit altogether.
Perhaps fourth, I need therapy. I don't go to school at the moment (that's something else I need to figure out) so I no longer have access to the free counselling I was getting at AU. My doctor recommended I go to the Anderson Center and had them call me to make an appt, but I do not currently have insurance. In two months I will, although I'll also have a $3000 deductible, so I'll have to figure something out, there. But it's important that I find the right person. After the therapist at school, I find I need someone I can connect with, I would like to feel better coming out of therapy, not worse. I also will not stand for someone who blames my problems on my parents -- they're not perfect, but I refuse to believe I was anything but amazingly lucky growing up.
This is only the beginning of my plan. I need some daily routine things, that will help me make good choices and keep me from falling back into paralyzing depression and debt. I would really love to find a church I can be active in, but at the moment I'm enjoying my dad's sermons. He really is brilliant:) Also we have communion every week, and this has been such a blessing for me. It's a weekly recommitment to my relationship with Jesus, who knows I need that recommitment weekly.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
Hmm, haven't been here in awhile...haven't felt inspired to write. If you read this blog, you most likely already know I was unemployed for two months, then worked for Ashley Furniture for three. I just started a new job last week in Anderson, with Low Cost Mobility. I verify insurance (mostly Medicare) for people who want to look into getting a power wheelchair or scooter. It's not exciting, but it's nice to have a set schedule, weekends off, and only have a 5 minute drive to work, as opposed to the 45 minutes to Ashley.
So I've been having a hard time, but I'm really working to feel better. I think I've gotten a realistic view of my past relationships, and the fact that I wasn't ready for any of them. I was/am trying to keep up my role of wife that I enjoyed, even if I didn't like my husband. I feel like I was created to be a partner, but I have to be solid on my own before I'm any good to someone else. Of course people have been saying that to me for years and years, and it always sounded like crap, frankly. It's like when they say, "everything happens for a reason," or whatever. It may be true, but to someone in true pain, it is NOT comforting. And it sounds like a copout.
The funny thing is, I didn't come to this realization until I found a Real.Good.Man. He lives a good three hours away, and of course there are other complications so at the moment we can't be together. And even though it makes me sad, I'm okay with it because in the admittedly short time I've known him, I have been set free from the fear of having to settle (it was more of an assumption, really). So I can relax and take the time to become the better Becca on my own, while he gets to know himself, too. I know he'll still be there. And even if he's not The One, I know there are men like him out there, who want to be with me and make me want to be the best Becca.
Okay, that's the end. I blog about boys too much;)
No more (alright well, not as much:). I'm going to start blogging again, and it's going to be good, so stay tuned:)
So I've been having a hard time, but I'm really working to feel better. I think I've gotten a realistic view of my past relationships, and the fact that I wasn't ready for any of them. I was/am trying to keep up my role of wife that I enjoyed, even if I didn't like my husband. I feel like I was created to be a partner, but I have to be solid on my own before I'm any good to someone else. Of course people have been saying that to me for years and years, and it always sounded like crap, frankly. It's like when they say, "everything happens for a reason," or whatever. It may be true, but to someone in true pain, it is NOT comforting. And it sounds like a copout.
The funny thing is, I didn't come to this realization until I found a Real.Good.Man. He lives a good three hours away, and of course there are other complications so at the moment we can't be together. And even though it makes me sad, I'm okay with it because in the admittedly short time I've known him, I have been set free from the fear of having to settle (it was more of an assumption, really). So I can relax and take the time to become the better Becca on my own, while he gets to know himself, too. I know he'll still be there. And even if he's not The One, I know there are men like him out there, who want to be with me and make me want to be the best Becca.
Okay, that's the end. I blog about boys too much;)
No more (alright well, not as much:). I'm going to start blogging again, and it's going to be good, so stay tuned:)
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Sunny Side UP
Hello Kiddos!
It's time for an update with Becca!
It's out! The news it out. I am resigning from my job, last day will be March 16, Palm Sunday. My letter to Staff Parish was read on Monday (apparently they were more concerned about my Media Shout duties than the Director of Youth Ministries Duties...what does that say, exactly?) and I'm sending out a letter to the kids this week. Although I felt a letter was too impersonal for some of the ones I'm close to, so I had them over last night for pizza. We had a great time, and they took it pretty well, although a couple of them already knew. Ah, church. Gossip central, I love the irony.
I have to admit I'm really looking forward to trying out new churches. I can't wait to just be a member and do what I want to do -- youth related or not. I really connect with teens, so I'm sure I'll volunteer somewhere.
I'm also hoping to volunteer at a new transitional house for men coming out of jail or prison. The founder of the program is a Methodist pastor, and friends with my dad -- also someone I highly respect. I hope I can help him develop the same program for women -- that is really where my passion is.
Okay, so far things sound good, but it's me, so here's the bad news:) I thought I had a job lined up when the pastors and I decided on my resignation date, but that job fell through. So now I have three weeks to find something. I'm not panicking yet, I applied for more than 13 jobs yesterday, most of them very promising, and most of them very interesting to me. So even the bad news is promising. Gosh I didn't know how optimistic I was about this whole thing until now:)
It's time for an update with Becca!
It's out! The news it out. I am resigning from my job, last day will be March 16, Palm Sunday. My letter to Staff Parish was read on Monday (apparently they were more concerned about my Media Shout duties than the Director of Youth Ministries Duties...what does that say, exactly?) and I'm sending out a letter to the kids this week. Although I felt a letter was too impersonal for some of the ones I'm close to, so I had them over last night for pizza. We had a great time, and they took it pretty well, although a couple of them already knew. Ah, church. Gossip central, I love the irony.
I have to admit I'm really looking forward to trying out new churches. I can't wait to just be a member and do what I want to do -- youth related or not. I really connect with teens, so I'm sure I'll volunteer somewhere.
I'm also hoping to volunteer at a new transitional house for men coming out of jail or prison. The founder of the program is a Methodist pastor, and friends with my dad -- also someone I highly respect. I hope I can help him develop the same program for women -- that is really where my passion is.
Okay, so far things sound good, but it's me, so here's the bad news:) I thought I had a job lined up when the pastors and I decided on my resignation date, but that job fell through. So now I have three weeks to find something. I'm not panicking yet, I applied for more than 13 jobs yesterday, most of them very promising, and most of them very interesting to me. So even the bad news is promising. Gosh I didn't know how optimistic I was about this whole thing until now:)
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
good stuff (continuing with the uncreative blog titles)
Things that currently make me happy (other than the regular family, pets and Eric):
1. Commentary on The Office DVDs...I know, commentaries are not cool, but I love them -- I love behind-the-scenes info, and these all seem like people who would be so fun to hang out with.
2. Making Jewelry...I got into it before Christmas, but I'm making new pieces every day now...so I decided I needed to sell it because what else am I going to do with it all? It's completely relaxing, and makes me feel like I'm being productive in some way. It's also nice to have a creative outlet. I'm not an entrepreneur in any way, so I wouldn't really go on Etsy or Ebay. I've given stuff to a lot of friends, and when they get compliments, they pass the word on. My mom has tons:)
3. occasional spurts of motivation...not often or long enough to call energy or normalcy, but the last couple days I've been doing the things I had pretty much given up for a couple months. Such as putting out the garbage, paying bills, and cleaning off my desk at work. Now if I could only get that resume completed and sent in, I'd be in good shape:)
4. My new neighbor...when the old lady next door passed away, her house was empty for about 5 months at least. Her grandson bought the house from her daughters, and it's nice to have a dude living next door...we've only talked once, but he seems nice, and basically it makes me feel safer.
5. Packages in the mail...with all the jewelry making, I've ordered tons of beads and findings and chains from Etsy and other online bead stores. It's fun to get the packages in the mail, it's like little gifts I forgot I paid for myself:)
6. Class...I'm only in one this semester, and it already looks to be a boring class (interesting subject matter, but uninteresting professor). However three of my closest seminary friends are in this class, and it's so nice to see them regularly again. I also found out that this guy who started seminary with us thinks I'm a hero. Okay, so this guy has always intimidated me because he is terribly good looking (and uncommonly nice), so when Cute Guy told me he thought it was so cool I'm so passionate about prison ministry (especially being a woman) I'm sure I must have blushed:)
7. Staff...Still feeling as though I need to find another job, but I'm becoming better friends with the rest of the staff (other than the pastor). It's nice.
8. Cherry Coke. My new drink of choice.
1. Commentary on The Office DVDs...I know, commentaries are not cool, but I love them -- I love behind-the-scenes info, and these all seem like people who would be so fun to hang out with.
2. Making Jewelry...I got into it before Christmas, but I'm making new pieces every day now...so I decided I needed to sell it because what else am I going to do with it all? It's completely relaxing, and makes me feel like I'm being productive in some way. It's also nice to have a creative outlet. I'm not an entrepreneur in any way, so I wouldn't really go on Etsy or Ebay. I've given stuff to a lot of friends, and when they get compliments, they pass the word on. My mom has tons:)
3. occasional spurts of motivation...not often or long enough to call energy or normalcy, but the last couple days I've been doing the things I had pretty much given up for a couple months. Such as putting out the garbage, paying bills, and cleaning off my desk at work. Now if I could only get that resume completed and sent in, I'd be in good shape:)
4. My new neighbor...when the old lady next door passed away, her house was empty for about 5 months at least. Her grandson bought the house from her daughters, and it's nice to have a dude living next door...we've only talked once, but he seems nice, and basically it makes me feel safer.
5. Packages in the mail...with all the jewelry making, I've ordered tons of beads and findings and chains from Etsy and other online bead stores. It's fun to get the packages in the mail, it's like little gifts I forgot I paid for myself:)
6. Class...I'm only in one this semester, and it already looks to be a boring class (interesting subject matter, but uninteresting professor). However three of my closest seminary friends are in this class, and it's so nice to see them regularly again. I also found out that this guy who started seminary with us thinks I'm a hero. Okay, so this guy has always intimidated me because he is terribly good looking (and uncommonly nice), so when Cute Guy told me he thought it was so cool I'm so passionate about prison ministry (especially being a woman) I'm sure I must have blushed:)
7. Staff...Still feeling as though I need to find another job, but I'm becoming better friends with the rest of the staff (other than the pastor). It's nice.
8. Cherry Coke. My new drink of choice.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
stuff
So I don't feel like blogging but apparently people want me to.
I had an awesome visit with my brother in Portland right after new years. I met his new girlfriend who is THE RADDEST and I hope they can stay together for a long time. They are really good together, they even fight well, which to me is a sign of a healthy relationship that can last. I've always wanted a sister, it would be cool if she could be one...she and I have a lot in common.
My ex-husband's girlfriend is preggers. He waited two months to tell me because he thought it would upset me, with good reason. But it doesn't upset me in the least...and I really can't tell you why, because as I said, he had good reason to think it would...
I was on Effexor for about a month or so, and ran out of it last Thursday...but I get it from the AU health services for free, and since it was winter break, they weren't seeing students...I was off of my anti-depressant for 5 days, and if I learned anything in that time, it was that the drug helps, and I am a complete disaster without it. I had a huge breakdown on Monday, so bad that my parents were afraid I would hurt myself -- I didn't ever want to hurt myself, but I was such a mess, I understand why they thought it would be an issue. I told them I think perhaps I would benefit from staying in a hospital for awhile, because I don't know how to take care of myself, and the therapy/medication I've had so far has helped a bit, but not to the point that I feel like I can function as a "normal" human being. Besides crashing mentally, I was extremely dizzy and nauseous for three days...but as soon as I started back on the medication, I felt much better all around...
Also Eric came today to help me get to the doctor (dizzy and driving are not a good combination), and also gave me seasons 1 and 3 of the Office (my mom gave me season 2 for christmas). So today was pretty good. Don't ask about the Eric thing because I don't know what's going on, all I know is that when I'm with him, I'm happy, and that he's never anything but supportive. I don't know if that's enough, but he's pretty much the only human being I am completely comfortable being myself around, and that is not my usual dramatics, it's the truth. It's true that he can't be everything I need at the moment, having indefinite sole custody of his son and living 3 hours away now...but honestly no one else in my life right now helps me feel as at ease as he does. No one else gives me that feeling of relief, and complete understanding, and well he's someone I can lean on who can handle it -- and keep me from falling flat. At this point, I don't care if he's "the one" or whatever. I'm a mess, and he makes me feel normal.
I had an awesome visit with my brother in Portland right after new years. I met his new girlfriend who is THE RADDEST and I hope they can stay together for a long time. They are really good together, they even fight well, which to me is a sign of a healthy relationship that can last. I've always wanted a sister, it would be cool if she could be one...she and I have a lot in common.
My ex-husband's girlfriend is preggers. He waited two months to tell me because he thought it would upset me, with good reason. But it doesn't upset me in the least...and I really can't tell you why, because as I said, he had good reason to think it would...
I was on Effexor for about a month or so, and ran out of it last Thursday...but I get it from the AU health services for free, and since it was winter break, they weren't seeing students...I was off of my anti-depressant for 5 days, and if I learned anything in that time, it was that the drug helps, and I am a complete disaster without it. I had a huge breakdown on Monday, so bad that my parents were afraid I would hurt myself -- I didn't ever want to hurt myself, but I was such a mess, I understand why they thought it would be an issue. I told them I think perhaps I would benefit from staying in a hospital for awhile, because I don't know how to take care of myself, and the therapy/medication I've had so far has helped a bit, but not to the point that I feel like I can function as a "normal" human being. Besides crashing mentally, I was extremely dizzy and nauseous for three days...but as soon as I started back on the medication, I felt much better all around...
Also Eric came today to help me get to the doctor (dizzy and driving are not a good combination), and also gave me seasons 1 and 3 of the Office (my mom gave me season 2 for christmas). So today was pretty good. Don't ask about the Eric thing because I don't know what's going on, all I know is that when I'm with him, I'm happy, and that he's never anything but supportive. I don't know if that's enough, but he's pretty much the only human being I am completely comfortable being myself around, and that is not my usual dramatics, it's the truth. It's true that he can't be everything I need at the moment, having indefinite sole custody of his son and living 3 hours away now...but honestly no one else in my life right now helps me feel as at ease as he does. No one else gives me that feeling of relief, and complete understanding, and well he's someone I can lean on who can handle it -- and keep me from falling flat. At this point, I don't care if he's "the one" or whatever. I'm a mess, and he makes me feel normal.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Merry Christmas!
Hello! You should go to this website for a fun Elf snowball fight! Son of a Nutcracker!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
An update
So here's what's been going on:
Therapist: I saw my therapist for the last time last Wednesday. Apparently they only allow you to see a counselor for one semester. They started me on Effexor XR a couple weeks ago...it has affected my apatite (pretty much only eating one meal a day) and my sleeping habits (I conk out super early, but it's much easier to get up earlier too). It has helped my anxiety, and kind of the focus/depression issues, but I still seriously lack motivation. Perhaps that's another issue all together.
School: I took an Incomplete in my Theology of Specialized Ministries class -- I just absolutely could not do the work. It is to be completed by March 3 for my grade to be changed. I'm hoping the meds aren't at their full working capacity yet, and that I'll be able to focus a little better in order to complete the work. In Constructive Theology, I completed all the work with pretty good grades except one paper I could not make myself do, which was 15% of my grade...I hope I pass. Next semester I plan to only take one class, in the evening, so I will be able to get more out of it, and also to complete the other class.
UPDATE: I got a C- in Constructive with that missing paper. That is the lowest grade you can get and still pass...so I guess it's good news, but I can't really feel good about it.
Work: I'm thinking of canceling our annual New Years Lock In. First there doesn't seem to be much interest, second I don't have any help except for my friend John Bundick (you have to say his whole name when you speak of him). Which don't get me wrong, John Bundick is a gifted youth minister who would be tremendous help, but it's always good to have more than two adults at something like this...and if I'm honest, I have no desire to stay up all night. I'm thinking perhaps we can do a lock in later in the year...
UPDATE: I did cancel the Lock In...haven't heard anything from anyone in response yet. John Bundick and I are discussing making our Winter Luau a Lock In event, when we have our youth groups together in February.
Family: My brother's girlfriend (Erin) has bought me a plane ticket to come to visit the two of them in Portland, Oregon. I am super stoked! I miss my brother a lot, and I'm dying to meet Erin -- she just seems awesome. My parents are going right after Christmas, but I can't go then because of work. I'm going Jan 2-5, and I really can't wait.
So there you go, John Bundick, I updated.
Therapist: I saw my therapist for the last time last Wednesday. Apparently they only allow you to see a counselor for one semester. They started me on Effexor XR a couple weeks ago...it has affected my apatite (pretty much only eating one meal a day) and my sleeping habits (I conk out super early, but it's much easier to get up earlier too). It has helped my anxiety, and kind of the focus/depression issues, but I still seriously lack motivation. Perhaps that's another issue all together.
School: I took an Incomplete in my Theology of Specialized Ministries class -- I just absolutely could not do the work. It is to be completed by March 3 for my grade to be changed. I'm hoping the meds aren't at their full working capacity yet, and that I'll be able to focus a little better in order to complete the work. In Constructive Theology, I completed all the work with pretty good grades except one paper I could not make myself do, which was 15% of my grade...I hope I pass. Next semester I plan to only take one class, in the evening, so I will be able to get more out of it, and also to complete the other class.
UPDATE: I got a C- in Constructive with that missing paper. That is the lowest grade you can get and still pass...so I guess it's good news, but I can't really feel good about it.
Work: I'm thinking of canceling our annual New Years Lock In. First there doesn't seem to be much interest, second I don't have any help except for my friend John Bundick (you have to say his whole name when you speak of him). Which don't get me wrong, John Bundick is a gifted youth minister who would be tremendous help, but it's always good to have more than two adults at something like this...and if I'm honest, I have no desire to stay up all night. I'm thinking perhaps we can do a lock in later in the year...
UPDATE: I did cancel the Lock In...haven't heard anything from anyone in response yet. John Bundick and I are discussing making our Winter Luau a Lock In event, when we have our youth groups together in February.
Family: My brother's girlfriend (Erin) has bought me a plane ticket to come to visit the two of them in Portland, Oregon. I am super stoked! I miss my brother a lot, and I'm dying to meet Erin -- she just seems awesome. My parents are going right after Christmas, but I can't go then because of work. I'm going Jan 2-5, and I really can't wait.
So there you go, John Bundick, I updated.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Dear Becca,
Here are some of the things you learned from being married to Chris:
1. When he said you couldn't make it on your own, it was said out of fear, and is not true.
2. You are better off being single forever than being married to him.
3. You CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens you.
4. You recognized the things about yourself you didn't like, and made steps to change them (like denying your true self to make him happy -- or to keep him from getting angry).
5. You have been able to turn the pain into a witness for God, and share it with other broken women.
Here's what I want you to remember. Even if it took you 4+ years to leave, YOU DID IT. You could have stayed longer, and even now, you can't even see how you possibly stayed that long. Even if it took every ounce of courage you could muster, even if he had to practically drag it out of you, even if you were scared shitless, YOU DID IT. You did it -- you're out. This is what you used to dream about.
And I forgive you. I forgive you for staying so long. I forgive you for compromising your integrity. For believing anything that came out of his mouth. For enabling him to continue his behavior. For going against God's will. I forgive you for making this mistake. I forgive you for knowing it was a mistake and doing it anyway. The hardest part is over. It's part of who you are, yes, but just a small piece of many. You learned from it, and have become stronger because of it. You are the Beloved. Jesus' love and support will sustain you -- don't lower your standards for any man! That is definitely something else you learned from being married to Chris.
Love,
Becca
1. When he said you couldn't make it on your own, it was said out of fear, and is not true.
2. You are better off being single forever than being married to him.
3. You CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens you.
4. You recognized the things about yourself you didn't like, and made steps to change them (like denying your true self to make him happy -- or to keep him from getting angry).
5. You have been able to turn the pain into a witness for God, and share it with other broken women.
Here's what I want you to remember. Even if it took you 4+ years to leave, YOU DID IT. You could have stayed longer, and even now, you can't even see how you possibly stayed that long. Even if it took every ounce of courage you could muster, even if he had to practically drag it out of you, even if you were scared shitless, YOU DID IT. You did it -- you're out. This is what you used to dream about.
And I forgive you. I forgive you for staying so long. I forgive you for compromising your integrity. For believing anything that came out of his mouth. For enabling him to continue his behavior. For going against God's will. I forgive you for making this mistake. I forgive you for knowing it was a mistake and doing it anyway. The hardest part is over. It's part of who you are, yes, but just a small piece of many. You learned from it, and have become stronger because of it. You are the Beloved. Jesus' love and support will sustain you -- don't lower your standards for any man! That is definitely something else you learned from being married to Chris.
Love,
Becca
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Some Stuff
Here's some stuff:
1) I went to Lafayette last Friday. Got to see Amy (and Trevor and Kalli!) which was glorious as always. We had girly drinks, which was fun since I've become such a beer drinker. (clarification: not that I drink beer all the time, just that on the rare occasion that I drink, it's almost always beer.)
2) My professor asked if I might be bipolar. My therapist doesn't think so, but I'm going to talk to the doctor about it, when I go Friday to see if I can go on anti-depressants. My therapist thinks either way, I need the medication to help me focus. I say amen and amen.
3) I am on a 12 week plan. I haven't figured out exactly what that means, but it sounded good. I am exploring the possibility of moving to Fort Wayne. I would say the biggest piece of this puzzle is moving out of my house. I don't know how long it will take to sell, but wherever I go, I need to get out of the house filled with memories of a bad marriage. I do not seem to have the support of my parents on this issue, perhaps because they just spent some fat cash having my kitchen painted.
4) I'm not good at letting go...I'll just leave it at that.
5) If you are a female friend of mine and we will be exchanging Christmas gifts, I'll tell you now you will probably be getting handmade jewelry. I've ordered awesome beads, findings and chains from Etsy, and visited Hobby Lobby today for some other stuff...I've already started working on some pieces, having a creative outlet is so releasing for me.
1) I went to Lafayette last Friday. Got to see Amy (and Trevor and Kalli!) which was glorious as always. We had girly drinks, which was fun since I've become such a beer drinker. (clarification: not that I drink beer all the time, just that on the rare occasion that I drink, it's almost always beer.)
2) My professor asked if I might be bipolar. My therapist doesn't think so, but I'm going to talk to the doctor about it, when I go Friday to see if I can go on anti-depressants. My therapist thinks either way, I need the medication to help me focus. I say amen and amen.
3) I am on a 12 week plan. I haven't figured out exactly what that means, but it sounded good. I am exploring the possibility of moving to Fort Wayne. I would say the biggest piece of this puzzle is moving out of my house. I don't know how long it will take to sell, but wherever I go, I need to get out of the house filled with memories of a bad marriage. I do not seem to have the support of my parents on this issue, perhaps because they just spent some fat cash having my kitchen painted.
4) I'm not good at letting go...I'll just leave it at that.
5) If you are a female friend of mine and we will be exchanging Christmas gifts, I'll tell you now you will probably be getting handmade jewelry. I've ordered awesome beads, findings and chains from Etsy, and visited Hobby Lobby today for some other stuff...I've already started working on some pieces, having a creative outlet is so releasing for me.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
